A couple weeks ago we found out that Ryan would need to take a job in Florida for 7-9 Months. It was presented as a decision we got to make but really we feel like we have no choice right now. The market in Kansas City is down and there are no jobs for Ryan to go to as a Superintendent. But there is one in Fort Walton Beach, Florida. A hospital on the base there. After considering the options we really felt this would be the best thing for him right now. Because who knows if down the road they would be forcing him to take a position in a worse place or for longer than 7 months. The incentives are that he gets a company truck and a decent per diem allowance to cover all his expenses.
Our plan right now is for Ryan to go to Florida by himself until Lily finishes school then we would join him for the Summer for 2 months and hopefully the project will be done by then. We also plan to spend Lily's Spring Break there. We hope to drive with the help of my parents so that Ryan doesn't have to fly home to drive us down then drive us back and fly back. I really don't feel like flying with 2 Kids and an Infant by myself either. Ryan is supposed to be able to fly home every 2 weekends as well with a weekend including Fridays and flying home Sunday afternoon/evenings. Hopefully that will work out because 2 weeks without seeing him is going to be hard enough. Looking at the calendar we've figured he can be home for all the important dates like Valentines, Our Anniversary, Lily's Birthday, and Charlee's Birthday. Then we'd spend my birthday with him during Spring Break.
This presents a challenge for me to trust God in giving me the patience I need to survive without Ryan. I've always said I am not one of those mom's who can do it all without the help of her husband. Not one of those mom's who could handle her husband being away for long periods at a time. I guess now I will get to test that fear and will need to rely on God and family and friends to help me through what I believe will be my hardest season of life yet. I spend my days looking forward to when Ryan gets home from work and I get to have a little break and help around the house. Now I am going to have to wait 2 weeks for that. I am going to be without my best friend each night to watch TV with. What am I going to do after I put the girls to bed? Normally we get a snack and settle in and watch our recorded shows. Something we both look forward to doing. I will miss that. But that may turn into my time to get stuff done around the house that won't get done otherwise during the day. Probably best to keep myself busy so I don't sit and dwell on how alone I am going to feel.
This week since we got confirmation that he will be leaving January 6th - I am realizing all the wonderful things he does to help me around the house and in taking care of my girls. I think bedtime is going to be the hardest for me. He's so good at getting them to get ready for bed and reading a story to them while I feed Rylee and get her ready for bed. Its going to make our night time routine take longer for sure. I just pray for patience during these times that I don't lose my temper with them as I know I can so easily.
I am just amazed at the timing of all of this. After spending 6 months at Ryan's parents, pregnant, waiting for our house to be built - this after a 2 year process of getting our old house sold, and finally moving in and having less than 3 weeks to get settled before Rylee's birth. Spending a week total in the hospital for high blood pressure and recovery. We finally start to feel settled about 2 weeks ago when we got to pull Ryan's truck in the garage. Life was finally feeling like we would start to just live our lives and just be a normal family.....then we get this news. Really?? Now??? Why God? I just don't get it. But I don't think I am supposed to right now. I know this will be a good thing for Ryan and his career. This could potentially be a very good thing for us financially when its all done. I am trusting God that his perfect plan and timing is all over this one. I pray it goes FAST! Especially these next 2 months of winter. I pray that snow isn't bad as I will have to figure a way to get my driveway shoveled if it snows a lot. Lots of things are coming to mind that Ryan did for me that I won't have done once he's gone. Little things like replacing my windshield wiper blades, putting air in my tires, mowing the grass, shoveling the driveway, lifting heavy boxes, putting the trash out, checking the house out when I hear a funny noise, getting up when we hear one of the girls get out of bed at night, and mostly just being my companion and TV buddy at night. I realized the other night even though we were laying there without talking just watching TV that I would miss him so much during our TV shows. Just him being beside me is comforting. I hope I am not making anyone uncomfortable but I am just sharing my heart that its going to feel very lonely for me at night. I just hope I don't go crazy and have emotional break downs each night. I pray I am able to sleep without him beside me.
The most we've ever been apart was a week at time and that was when we were dating and we were at different schools. And even then it wasn't a full week it was just Monday through Friday that we didn't see each other because we both came home on the weekends. And then we didn't have 3 kids. And lets not even get started on how much they are going to miss their daddy. Last night Lily asked him if he was going to come home from work today or if he was going to be in Florida. I know that had to break his heart as it will mine when I know the girls are going to ache from missing their daddy. They have a pretty amazing, sweet, compassionate daddy who loves them very much and will miss interacting with them and loving on them. This will be hard on him too. We hope to be able to face-time or Skype daily so they can talk to him. I just hope its enough to get us through the 2 weeks without him. Its going to have to be.
Some people may think this is no big deal but when you are a stay-at-home mom its even harder. My sane time was when Ryan was home with us - especially on the weekends when I felt I got a little time to myself and I get a break from some of the responsibility. Ryan enjoys spending time with and taking care of our girls and for that I am very grateful. I know not many dads out there are like that and that's why its a big deal to me because I will feel a difference when he's gone. No more sleeping in for me on Saturdays while he's up with the girls. Sunday mornings will seem more rushed because he wont be here to get them ready and take them to church with him when he goes early for Worship Team. Getting anywhere is going to take twice as long. I already feel like I am late to everything and its only going to get worse. I don't want to complain I am just realizing how much I need and rely on him each and every single day and its going to take strength from God to get me through each day. I will have a new respect for single moms after this experience for sure and mom's of military husbands. Mom's with husbands who travel for work all the time. I commend them and will be in prayer for them as well during this time and hopefully something will continue to pray about after this is all over.
Its only for a short season and could be a lot worse. But it doesn't mean it isn't going to be tough to go thru. Thanks for reading and thanks for praying for me- those of you that know me.
Monday, December 9, 2013
Saturday, June 22, 2013
19 Weeks, Another Girl, 100 Days
Well about 3.5 weeks ago we found out we are having another girl! I will be honest I was a little shocked and upset at the thought that we would not be adding a boy to our family. You can judge all you want but any mom of the same sex would have to agree with me. In a way you "mourn" the idea of having at least one of each. I had to grieve the idea of having a boy since this baby will be our last. Now that some time has passed and we are FINALLY set on a name I am excited about the idea of 3 princesses living in our house. The slumber parties and them getting to play Cinderella and the step sisters as Lily would say (She would be Cinderella of course!)
We are also 100 Days out on closing on our new house. We close just 18-25 Days before our sweet girl will get here. This depends on whether I go at 36 weeks or 37 weeks. Hoping she gives us another week to get somewhat settled into the new house before we bring her home.
I am patiently (maybe if I say that the feeling will actually come over me) waiting for the opportunity to set our interest rate and finalize what our payment will look like. I am trying my best not to worry about it and to trust that God has the perfect plan for our finances with regards to this blessing we have in building our dream home. He WILL take care of us and I should not worry. It has been fun watching the progress happen at our house. We finalized our exterior paint and stone colors and now we just need to get the developer to approve the paint choice. Next we will need to decide on floor and tile. This week they will hopefully put shingles on our roof and maybe start putting in the windows. Then it won't matter how often it rains! So ready to be settled and to start having some normalcy.
Its hard to not want to start nesting when I have no where to nest. No where to put anything that I'd like to start stocking up on. I am even a little nervous about buying winter clothes since I don't know if she will need premie clothes like Lily did or if she will need newborn. I guess we'd be safe with newborn because she would wear them eventually but then we'd still need something she can wear right away.
My next OB appointment is next friday and I will be 20 weeks. I think she will start measuring my belly to see if I am measuring ahead or not. So far both recent ultrasounds has revealed a slightly larger baby which is good since I will be going early. Just praying for a smooth next 16-17 weeks and no bedrest!!! Here are some images of our sweet girl. The 3D image is from yesterday 19weeks and the rest were from 15weeks 5Days.
We are also 100 Days out on closing on our new house. We close just 18-25 Days before our sweet girl will get here. This depends on whether I go at 36 weeks or 37 weeks. Hoping she gives us another week to get somewhat settled into the new house before we bring her home.
I am patiently (maybe if I say that the feeling will actually come over me) waiting for the opportunity to set our interest rate and finalize what our payment will look like. I am trying my best not to worry about it and to trust that God has the perfect plan for our finances with regards to this blessing we have in building our dream home. He WILL take care of us and I should not worry. It has been fun watching the progress happen at our house. We finalized our exterior paint and stone colors and now we just need to get the developer to approve the paint choice. Next we will need to decide on floor and tile. This week they will hopefully put shingles on our roof and maybe start putting in the windows. Then it won't matter how often it rains! So ready to be settled and to start having some normalcy.
Its hard to not want to start nesting when I have no where to nest. No where to put anything that I'd like to start stocking up on. I am even a little nervous about buying winter clothes since I don't know if she will need premie clothes like Lily did or if she will need newborn. I guess we'd be safe with newborn because she would wear them eventually but then we'd still need something she can wear right away.
My next OB appointment is next friday and I will be 20 weeks. I think she will start measuring my belly to see if I am measuring ahead or not. So far both recent ultrasounds has revealed a slightly larger baby which is good since I will be going early. Just praying for a smooth next 16-17 weeks and no bedrest!!! Here are some images of our sweet girl. The 3D image is from yesterday 19weeks and the rest were from 15weeks 5Days.
Friday, May 10, 2013
13 weeks, 12 weeks- heart rate
So I looked back at my old blogs from my pregnancy with Charlee because I couldn't remember when I started feeling her move. I thought 13 weeks was pretty early but I guess with her I felt the same way and probably felt her about then too. Nothing real definite yet just certain moments where I'm like it could be but it's probably just an air bubble or gas or something.
So far I feel pretty good for the most part. My cravings have varied from month to month. I was needing Taco Bell or Goodcents every other day and about 3 weeks ago that stopped. Now I want sherbet icecream at night and nothing food wise really gets me excited.
I've been eating chicken noodle soup for lunch because that's the only thing that sounds good. Although, as I am typing this I did realize that I have wanted hot dogs or corndogs a lot too -- just in the last couple weeks. So strange!
I have only made myself coffee in the morning a couple times and that was right after I found out I was pregnant and now I pretty much don't want it at all unless I am at church or someone else makes it for me. Again strange. All this makes me feel like I am having a boy because I drank coffee with both my girls. I have had an aversion to ranch for about 6 weeks now too.
Last week at my 12 week appt I heard the heartbeat which was 170. Dr ray said girl but Bekah told me that Graham was at 170 at this point too. So we'll see!! I think since my pre pregnancy weight I have gained about 3 lbs but the appt they got my first weight from was when I was sick with an awful sore throat and wasn't eating anything.
I started showing like the next week after we found out but I don't feel like I have gotten much bigger since then which is nice.
Well that's it for now.
Friday, April 12, 2013
3rd Times Charm (hopefully ;-) )
Funny that the last post I made on here was about us getting ready to list our home for sale by owner - 13 months ago. Now here we are living with Ryan's parents for almost a week now and waiting for our home to be finished 8/31/2013. If you would have asked me about 4 months ago that we'd be in this position right now I don't know that I would have believed you. That's because 4 months ago we hadn't sold our home yet and I was starting to get a little depressed about that and the fact that we hadn't heard anything about our possible move to North Dakota.
We found out in July 2012 that Ryan was going to take a job for a promotion that required us to move temporarily for 14-16 months starting this April. This month that is. At first we were actually excited about the adventure but as time went on it started to seem like it wasn't going to happen and I got frustrated that we had still not heard anything. We basically put our lives on hold because of this news.
But God evidently knew better than I did that something much better was planned for us. I just needed to be patient and to trust in Him.
This trust didn't come easy. It came with a lot of prayer, tears, maybe a little depression, and finally relinquishing control over to God with the sale of our home and with our future of growing our family. We decided we were going to live life like we are staying in Spring Hill until we heard otherwise. We decided to list our home with a realtor and before I could even think about that we got a phone call from the agent that represents Prairie Ridge subdivision where we have our lot reserved. Turns out our lot reservation had expired and we were working to get it renewed and he wanted to check and make sure we were still interested in building there. By the end of the conversation I knew he was the guy to sell our home for us. He was very motivated because he knew that once he sold our house we would be buying a house in his subdivision. So for him it was a win win and he was even willing to discount his commission to make the money work for us. So by the last week in January we were up and running on the MLS!! And during this time we finally heard that the North Dakota project was not going to use Ryan after all!! What awesome news! And confirmation of our steps of faith in living our lives like we already knew this news. God is good!
After 3 days we had a showing that resulting in a 2nd showing and then an offer. We accepted it - despite our feelings about where it left us compared to what we paid for our house originally - but we had an offer and our home was sold. This peace about our situation was worth the not so super offer.
So we started packing and had our inspection which resulted in us putting in a Radon kit and we made it through the appraisal. But 35 days into the 60 day closing period we were hit with a bomb - a denial for our buyers. I immediately just ached and cried and did not even know what to think! What are we going to do? We just put $10,000 down on our lot to have our builder start building our home while we waited til closing. And now no deal and we have to re-stage our home that I had just taken curtains down and photos/art off the walls. I decided to take a break and I prayed- cried out to God. As much as I was angry and confused I prayed aloud through tears for God to give me answers to give me a peace about what was happening and to help me to trust that He had a better plan for us. And later that evening I had felt God's peace about the whole situation and was ready to move on and get our house back on the market. This was a Friday. By Monday we got our canceled contract from the buyers and we were back active on the MLS. This was Monday March 4th. We had several showings and a second showing to someone who liked our home but had a home to sell. Then Spring break came along and we thought we'd get no traffic but it was the beginning of our craziest week yet!
The week of my birthday March 24th-29th we had a showing everyday and a couple days we had 2 showings. By Thursday we had gotten an offer that we countered and then Friday morning we got another offer that was too good to pass up.
The buyer wanted our house in 2 weeks and was paying cash for the home! We could not believe it! I just knew God had a plan for us and it felt so good to trust Him through the process and to really sit back and watch Him work. Friday March 29th was also the same day we got to see our baby and hear the heartbeat for the first time. We were 7 weeks pregnant and got the best news the same day about our house! We were in for a crazy week ahead, but this time it was going to be final. This was the deal. And with this deal we came out $6K ahead of our original offer and we are only 2 weeks off our original time line to be moved out. God is so good! It feels so good to trust Him and to look back and see how He orchestrated this whole thing perfectly. Teaching me to trust Him and accept His peace during the process. Especially since I am pregnant and the last thing I needed would have been the stress of what are we going to do because our buyer fell through.
So now we wait. We wait as they will hopefully start digging our house this weekend or early next week. Wait as we can't wait to know what we are having! Both the girls want a baby brother but we have said that God is the one that decides which is best for us. Its hard not to say we are kinda pulling for a boy. Because that would certainly be the last piece to fall into place for us. But either way all we really want is a healthy pregnancy and a healthy baby. Can't wait to find out!!
I think that's about it for now. Hopefully my next update won't be so long from now!!
We found out in July 2012 that Ryan was going to take a job for a promotion that required us to move temporarily for 14-16 months starting this April. This month that is. At first we were actually excited about the adventure but as time went on it started to seem like it wasn't going to happen and I got frustrated that we had still not heard anything. We basically put our lives on hold because of this news.
But God evidently knew better than I did that something much better was planned for us. I just needed to be patient and to trust in Him.
This trust didn't come easy. It came with a lot of prayer, tears, maybe a little depression, and finally relinquishing control over to God with the sale of our home and with our future of growing our family. We decided we were going to live life like we are staying in Spring Hill until we heard otherwise. We decided to list our home with a realtor and before I could even think about that we got a phone call from the agent that represents Prairie Ridge subdivision where we have our lot reserved. Turns out our lot reservation had expired and we were working to get it renewed and he wanted to check and make sure we were still interested in building there. By the end of the conversation I knew he was the guy to sell our home for us. He was very motivated because he knew that once he sold our house we would be buying a house in his subdivision. So for him it was a win win and he was even willing to discount his commission to make the money work for us. So by the last week in January we were up and running on the MLS!! And during this time we finally heard that the North Dakota project was not going to use Ryan after all!! What awesome news! And confirmation of our steps of faith in living our lives like we already knew this news. God is good!
After 3 days we had a showing that resulting in a 2nd showing and then an offer. We accepted it - despite our feelings about where it left us compared to what we paid for our house originally - but we had an offer and our home was sold. This peace about our situation was worth the not so super offer.
So we started packing and had our inspection which resulted in us putting in a Radon kit and we made it through the appraisal. But 35 days into the 60 day closing period we were hit with a bomb - a denial for our buyers. I immediately just ached and cried and did not even know what to think! What are we going to do? We just put $10,000 down on our lot to have our builder start building our home while we waited til closing. And now no deal and we have to re-stage our home that I had just taken curtains down and photos/art off the walls. I decided to take a break and I prayed- cried out to God. As much as I was angry and confused I prayed aloud through tears for God to give me answers to give me a peace about what was happening and to help me to trust that He had a better plan for us. And later that evening I had felt God's peace about the whole situation and was ready to move on and get our house back on the market. This was a Friday. By Monday we got our canceled contract from the buyers and we were back active on the MLS. This was Monday March 4th. We had several showings and a second showing to someone who liked our home but had a home to sell. Then Spring break came along and we thought we'd get no traffic but it was the beginning of our craziest week yet!
The week of my birthday March 24th-29th we had a showing everyday and a couple days we had 2 showings. By Thursday we had gotten an offer that we countered and then Friday morning we got another offer that was too good to pass up.
The buyer wanted our house in 2 weeks and was paying cash for the home! We could not believe it! I just knew God had a plan for us and it felt so good to trust Him through the process and to really sit back and watch Him work. Friday March 29th was also the same day we got to see our baby and hear the heartbeat for the first time. We were 7 weeks pregnant and got the best news the same day about our house! We were in for a crazy week ahead, but this time it was going to be final. This was the deal. And with this deal we came out $6K ahead of our original offer and we are only 2 weeks off our original time line to be moved out. God is so good! It feels so good to trust Him and to look back and see how He orchestrated this whole thing perfectly. Teaching me to trust Him and accept His peace during the process. Especially since I am pregnant and the last thing I needed would have been the stress of what are we going to do because our buyer fell through.
So now we wait. We wait as they will hopefully start digging our house this weekend or early next week. Wait as we can't wait to know what we are having! Both the girls want a baby brother but we have said that God is the one that decides which is best for us. Its hard not to say we are kinda pulling for a boy. Because that would certainly be the last piece to fall into place for us. But either way all we really want is a healthy pregnancy and a healthy baby. Can't wait to find out!!
I think that's about it for now. Hopefully my next update won't be so long from now!!
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