Lady in Waiting

So as much as I don't want to admit it I am fairly certain that we will be going to 39 Weeks.  After this week's tests and blood pressure check I am fairly certain that I am not preeclamptic this time around.  Which is a good thing.  It actually gives us hope for the next pregnancy which we were unsure about.  I think a lot of what has happened with my blood pressure this pregnancy has been "worry" induced because of what happened with my first pregnancy (emergency c-section at 35 weeks due to severe preeclampsia).  That being said I am encouraged that with me not having it this pregnancy that our chances will be even less in the next pregnancy.  Because I wasn't ready to say this is it for us.  I'd like to at least try for a boy next.  Now we may wait longer than having them 2 years apart.  Like maybe waiting til Charlee is out of diapers before we have another one.  That would make things easier if I am to be put on bed rest again for any reason.
So I am operating on the assumption that I have 2 more weeks of bed rest until little Charlee's arrival.  Some things that make me sad about this are that now I won't be having another little baby like Lily was.  But at least she will be healthy and full term.  We won't be able to participate in Life Spring's child dedication service Sunday May 23rd with my friends who had babies this past year.  I've had to miss out on family gatherings and will be missing out on more in the next coming weeks.  My recovery is now going to get pushed back which might prevent me from doing some things that I could if we had her this week.  Like I won't be able to swim this summer until July now.  But those are all just reasons, not good excuses for wishing this pregnancy be over.  I want her to get as much time as she needs in there and now I know that's what God has planned for us at this point.  There's a reason my protein wasn't high enough.  There's a reason my blood pressure couldn't get high enough yesterday at the doctor.  God does not want Charlee to be born yet.  And now that I have accepted that I know that He's in control and whatever complications can still happen at this point I know that He is in charge and not me.  And now I actually have time to read the books for our Women's Ministry book club this summer.  I wasn't sure if I'd have time to read the first one with Charlee arriving this week but now with 2 more weeks of bed rest I should be able to.  Currently Reading:

37 Weeks & Counting...

Well the test results weren't as high as we were hoping.  So no scheduled c-section for Friday.  But my doctor did say that if my blood pressure is high enough at my appointment tomorrow then we can plan to have the c-section done tomorrow and not mess around.
I know a lot of people have been telling me that its better to wait for her to stay in there longer but I am sure that if my doctor felt that needed to happen she wouldn't be willing to do this for us.  She knows my history and knows that Charlee has been doing really well on all the Non Stress Tests and the sonogram 2 weeks ago showed a large healthy baby.  I am full-term now so she most likely feels it is in my best interest to go ahead and deliver before anything else happens with me.  Especially since last time we caught the preeclamsia too late.  Now I do want to do what's best for Charlee and myself obviously.  But I completely trust my doctor's opinion because she knows me and she knows what my body can handle at this point.  My first c-section wasn't normal as in they had to make an extra incision to get Lily out.  This is also a concern at this point because with Charlee being so big she doesn't want my extra incision to cause problems the bigger she gets and the more stretched I become in that area.  So while I do want to do what is best for Charlee and to wait til she's "ready" to come out I also want to trust my doctor knows what's best for me and for the baby and that she would never do anything that wasn't going to be good for both of us at this point.
I'm just ready to be done with bed rest.  Ready to spend some quality time with Lily outside on nice days.  Ready to help around the house again.  Ready to sleep at night.  Ready to be done with the day to day worry about when she's going to get here.  I trust God with this pregnancy and have since the beginning.  If she is to arrive tomorrow then it will happen.  And if not then I guess we wait one more week and hope things don't get worse.  God, I know you are in control.  But a little plan would be nice sometimes ;-)

36 Weeks, More Answers, A Plan Maybe???

I hate to even write this cause it seems like things keep changing each time I see my doctor.  As a quick background of what's going on, first I apologize if this is more info than you want but at this point its the only way to explain my situation.  I am now seeing the doctor twice a week.  Mondays for regular OB visit, Non Stress Test, and to start my 24 hour urine.  Thursdays I go in for blood work, NST, and blood pressure check.  The 24 Urine is to check for protein which is a sign of preeclampsia.  My count has to be 300+ for them to consider me "preeclamptic".  Last week's hospital visit and 24 Hr test only showed about 220 counts.  Today's test showed 275.  Which is a big jump.  So at this point my doctor is fairly confident that if we do the next 24 Hr test that it will be over 300 and then we can schedule the C-Section for next Friday (which is the 14th).  Now if my blood pressure reaches above 150/100 (last Monday it reached 158/98 which is what sent me to hospital overnight stay) while in the doctor's office they will forgo the 24 Hr test and just do the C-section that day.  This is what we are trying to avoid at this point.  So for my next 2 dr's visits we need to pray that my BP stays down so we can PLAN to have her instead of having an emergency.  Because we believe that is what caused all my issues last time was the fact that I hadn't fasted before the surgery and the urgency of it sent my body into shock (the ileus).

All that being said.  It is highly likely that we will be having Charlee next Friday unless my blood pressure is off the charts or my 24 Hr doesn't reach 300 count.  In which case it would be emergency (high BP) or we wait til 39 weeks.

I go to the doctor tomorrow for my blood work and NST.  We just need to keep my pressure down below 150/100 for this visit and the Monday visit.  A nice way to celebrate Mother's day weekend staying at home with my feet up praying that my blood pressure is good for Monday.